Sha la la la la...i miss you

rain in summer is my favourite.

funny,
walking alone through town,
fall fast approaching,
thinking of you,
so far away
missing you,
this year the same as last...

walking through the park,
trailing my hand in the river,
running barefoot through rain-soaked grass,
the bottoms of my pant-legs hanging soaked and heavy against my ankles,
fresh-cut grass clinging to my feet,
i got lost on the trails in the park,
i forgot where i was going,
why i was going there,
you weren't there,
so i talked to a deer,
i miss you.

vividly lovely,
i tipped my head back to see
the lavender dusk sky just beyond the forest leaves,
i listened to the cicadas singing their high-pitched song,
lulling my senses to sleep.
i missed you.

then the sky turned blue like jazz
then the stars winked at me through the treetops
then the fire died down to embers
then the night deepened and loneliness clutched my soul
i miss you


The world is Trouble...and Grace.
That's all there is.

May It Be

Seriouslyverybeautiful song! I know, it was originally done by Enya, but I like Hayley's version better.

I was going to post something about how I went to a church picnic, and after ice cream it started raining. Then it rained some more, and shortly turned into a wild and wonderful storm, and most of the young girls and I went and got soaked COMPLETELY and laughed and had a very merryjollywonderfulamazingblissful time in it. But I couldn't put it properly into words, so I posted this video instead.

Oh btw! I have work! I work for a Bed & Breakfast. :) *happiness*

Enjoy!!

~aisha

It's really hot lately. Every time I go outside I feel kind of like I'm melting.
Iced coffee really helps me feel more capable of bearing the heat. Or maybe it's just the cool fluid in my stomach that makes me feel less hot. Yes, that's the more logical conclusion. (but who ever said i was logical? hmm...i like to think it's the coffee. ;) )

I reread over a poem i wrote a few months ago, and it was super sad, and i watched a super sad movie, which made me cry, and then i missed everything that could be...that was...that should be...
so i called Beka, told her everything, and she made me laugh...
so this is to Beka, my soul sister.
Thanks for making me laugh.
I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

every time i think of you....today was a fairytale

rain in summer...

a cup of coffee, a fried egg, a piece of toast,
and Prince Caspian.

a day to exist, or a day to *live*

I lived.

the rain came pouring down.
this is not like summer. rain isn't supposed to be here in summer.
but it is. and i love it.
so i went to the park. (who does that? seriously, am i just crazy? please say i am!)
the river was flooded, and mudded (hah! i made a rhyme!),
but the fields were green and inviting, and the sky poured itself out,
so i walked until my clothes were soaked.
then i walked some more,
until my skin was too.
and i kept walking,
until my hair was a waterfall.
and i might as well have dived into the river..
but i didn't.
i just walked.
and i danced.
and it rained.

and the next book i opened said this:

" 'How long, Lord, must I wait?'
'Never mind, child. Trust Me.' "

One good thing...

I have a very amazing younger brother, and as the months and years go by i regret that we were such pills to each other when we were younger.
he's generous, loving, caring, sympathetic, FUN! (i didn't used to think so, but now I know)
God is working amazingly in his life, and I rejoice to see it.
Alan seems unperturbed by trouble.

"The world is Trouble..." someone said, to which Alan, if he knew who said it and what else he'd said, would immediately follow with the rest of the sentence, "...and Grace. That's all there is."
That's sort of Alan's attitude, though he really doesn't know it.

xo to alan xo

<3



...other than that he's kind of weird... ;)

summertime! (and i miss you)

i have discovered great virtues...

iced coffee is seriously the only thing i drink these summer days.
besides water, of course.

wet seal is the awesomest store ever. :) my soul sista and i went, and found more lovely things at wet seal than at heritage 1981, old navy, american eagle, forever 21, banana republic, h&m and urban outfitters together.

i went to the beach with a bunch of friends, and found myself listening to Skillet and the like, on the trip home, around midnight, because the driver of our bus would have fallen asleep otherwise. interesting music, Skillet...

Stepping Heavenward is the book I've found myself most thoroughly engrossed in so far, this summer. If you have not, you really ought to read it, especially if you are human and sinful...

i never used to think summer was so much fun! i used to be so in love with autumn and the falling leaves, falling rain, fall season, that i forgot to even notice the glorious things that summer could hold...

beautiful things all around me everywhere. i hope i can open my eyes to see them, and not dwell in the pain that threatens to undo me.

like...just how much i miss my soul sister.

we did have so much fun together for the five days that she was here! it makes me happy and sad at the same time to think about it.

this is me trying to focus more on the *happy* than on the sad: :)

this is me sort of not really succeeding with great satisfaction...
... :) ... :(

um...

this is a me that needs sleep...
zzzzzzzzz

Beka Conser has been here since last Thursday, and I have never been happier since I left Oregon, around 4 years ago.
She's leaving tomorrow, but I have determined not to think about it until she actually goes. Nevermind that there is just a huge ache hiding deep inside that is just waiting....

We have been looking at pictures of old times and happinesses. It's absolutely wonderful.

In short...

I MISS HOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!